I find myself at a crossroads in life. I feel as though I am on track to becoming the man that God wants me to be, but sometimes still holding tight to the comfort and safety of not being on my own yet. I feel deep within that I am ready to be out in the world, I feel that I have been prepared enough and as soon as I get that next sheet of paper I will be ready to take on the world, get married, buy a house, or whatever is in store........but.......
Who honestly can say for sure what they will be doing in two years.... I know me for one have an idea but can't count on it. We never know when its our time to go, it could be now, later, tomorrow, one second form now, one year from now; only God knows.
I find peace and chaos in that sometimes. Peace because I really don't have to worry about missing out if its God's timing and then chaos because I am worried I'll miss out on things I haven't experienced. Kind of funny how that works. When I think like a human being, and my human nature says that I need to "Live it Up!!!!" I feel unrest in the soul. When I focus on the scripture talking about how we shouldn't ever worry but pray about everything, I feel a shalom peace.
SO I have some big decisions coming up, If you are reading this and are a praying person, please... I would ask for your prayers. I don't care what faith you profess, your prayers would be appreciated.
Things with Abby...
Well I could go ahead and say they are great, but that would be an understatement. I haven't been this happy since the day I gave my life to the Lord. Fo real. Abby Dilling has got to be the most awesome Beautiful girl I've ever known, and I am so blessed to have known her and to be her boyfriend.
This is jus the recent stuff on my mind, take care...
-BICKris-
