Random Thoughts, poetry?`

Into the night I think and drift,

My thoughts of life and where i've been,

I ponder why I chose this road,

Filled with joy and sometimes sorrow,

What little shine caught my eye?

As I lay down to rest I think to myself in my chest,

Sits the heart of a man who is baffled by his lord,

In awe of His purpose and direction,

Wondering why he deserves His love,

Questions the very fabric of his being.

I go to bed tonight with one thought,

Will tomorrow be mine or His?

Oh February>>>???

Sitting in my dorm room eatin some chips and salsa contemplating on life.

Lots of directions to choose, but I typically tend to lean toward where my Lord wants me to go. I'm not perfect but I try. So this week is apart of the 3000/12 challenge. 3000 pushups and 12 bible verses memorized in 12 days. I have not done very well, but i've learned something with the pushups. Sometimes when we try to jump back into a state we used to find ourselves in, it can be very painful if we do not ease into it.

I think this can be applied to our faith. If we find ourselves distancing getting farther away from God and not living out the lifestyle we used to, we don't want to try and just throw ourselves back into our old routine of doing things. There can in fact some intense pains, we have to realize that when we make the decision to follow Christ with our lives. The pains go away in working out if you stick with it, just like some things will get easier and others harder in our walks with Christ.

We shouldn't give everything up before counting the cost, because we may back out if the going gets tough. So regardless of where you are right now, If you call yourself a follower of Christ, look at your life and how you have counted the cost (i will do this as well, im not meaning to sound preachy) what have you done to truly give your all to Christ? What can WE do to follow him better, to more fully sacrifice our lives to the cause of love and His gospel?

Just some food for thought...

New Course of Action...

Life brings many facets and variables. Why do we tend to misinterpret what life brings? At least why do I?

In the past year, I have been in numerous zip codes for extended periods of time. I've met tons of people, developed great friendships, experienced happiness, treaded through sorrow, floated to the top and sank to the bottom. I'm not quite certain why I feel the way I do sometimes. I realize that I am just growing up, and learning more and more about the world. Maybe this has been my opportunity to see the world for what it really is. To realize the reason that we all yearn for something better. I thought for the longest time that the one thing I wanted in this life was a family. These days, I know that I want that, but not as soon as I originally planned. I am enjoying my singleness for the time being, to an extent. Yes it gets lonely just like everyone who has been single can attest to. But I also feel that God is going to use this time to help me see what He has willed for me.

I've known love, I've known heartbreak, and I know that God will provide through both... :)

To anyone who reads this post:

Do not give up on life. God has a plan for your life. Sometimes we have to quiet our lives to listen to him. God is so wanting to have you be one of his own. He desires that close intimate relationship with you and I.

I just want to say that God is good, and knows where this life will lead, so we need to trust in Him...

-Kris-