This is a summer to enjoy and grow...

Today is a Sunday...

I did not make it up to church this morning :/... but I did delve into the word of God a bit. I believe that God is doing a mysterious work in me. I have fallen as many times as the next man, and yet He still welcomes me home. I know that I am not alone in these feelings. God's work is evident in two different ways: in our heart and our actions. We know and feel him work in our heart and can see it through what we find ourselves doing, just as well as others can see the outer examples of His work. The important part of the two ways is that they be in tune. If we are doing loving things on the outside but are full of garbage on the inside, who are we fooling? Ourselves? God? Of course not... we can't fool ourselves forever. We have to dig in and find the heart behind God and see what He has for us. That can be extremely difficult at times, but it is an essential part of our existence, since when we think back to the beginning, we were originally intended for fellowship with God. We would have known exactly what His heart was and what He wanted.

The work that God is doing is a different but familiar method. He has been sitting on the sidelines waiting for me to jump off the bench and do what He has called me to do. I felt that this last year at Huntington I was on the court. When I got home for the summer, I decided to take myself out of the game. Then 1/2 of the Tahbi band arrived in Cinci and things were looking up. Life happened and ended that. It was no one's fault, just the direction God was taking our lives. As soon as this was over, I went back to not wanting to play. I have arrived at a place that I am really not comfortable being in. I want to go in the game. I want to play and participate with love and passion for my Lord. It is time for me to put aside the mistakes and realize that yes that's what they were... mistakes.

From here on out I am going to do a few things everyday to make subtle but necessary changes in my heart and mindset... I also received a music application from the church I am currently attending at home, I look forward to seeing what becomes of it. I know two things...

1. God wants me to do something with Music...

2. God wants me to finish college...

besides those I have no idea in what direction he is taking me... I want to be ready and willing for anything. I love my family and friends but I want them to know that I am committed first and foremost to what God has for me. So with that said I want to leave the reader with a verse...

Ecclesiastes 8:6

Yes, there is a time and a way for everything, even as people's troubles lie heavily upon them.

God Bless

Life's just one "Epic Holiday"

Today in the life of the Burge...

I am at home in Cincinnati. I was supposed to go and make a list of stuff to sell today, but the motivation was just not there, so I will tonight work out or do some sort of exercise and play some guitar with Josh.

But the real reason for this post was to get down some of my thoughts of the day...

Life is just one epic holiday? That is an interesting statement. Life is full of ups and downs, celebrations and lamentations. Life contains the answers and the questions. Life is. Why do we live? Why were we created? Well depending on your belief you will answer that question differently. I believe that we were created originally with the purpose to enjoy fellowship with God on a constant basis. We as a human race decided to disobey him and were not allowed to continue in our original purpose.

Holidays are fun, we typically celebrate them with an abundance of food and or drinking and being merry. Life was originally intended to be that. Celebration. Fellowship. God wanted us to enjoy life with no consequences, but we chose different. Now there exists consequences that can be destructive at times. We are to enjoy life in moderation. It is my belief that God wants us to obey the laws of the land, but at the same time live fruitful happy lives, and not just happy, but joyful lives. God wants us to feel his joy, and experience his love. Then in turn share that with others. Along with that God wants us to enjoy life.

I was just thinking about some things today and thought I would share... God Bless all

-BICKris-

Wow i'm about to be a senior in college...

As the end of my junior year is one week away I am left wondering some things...

What did I do this year to help in my growth as a man? What lives did I change this year? What things do I regret having done and have learned to not repeat? What do I do now? Along with a million other questions I wonder where I am going?

These questions are the very essence of who I am these days. I am constantly evaluating what I am and who I am. I do not necessarily think it's the most healthy outlook, but it is reality for me right now. I have prayed and prayed about how to break free from this and I believe that in time God is going to just show me how, because any attempt of my own has been in vain.

Getting ready to step into a new phase of life I am encountered with the cold truth that the world is not far away, and I am about to go out into it for the rest of my existence. No longer will I be able to "come home" and take a break from work or college. I will be in the place to which I end up and there I will stay. Now that place could and will change as God sees fit. This I am sure of.

Japan was amazing. I would love to go back, there is apart of me that believes I am not done being there. I would love to meet a woman soon or I guess whenever. Marriage has always been something I want to work through and for, but I know it is best with God's timing. I know that God does have these things taken care of and will continue to guide me, but it's so hard to see that in my human mind. I thank God for the great parents, family and friends He has blessed me with. I am truly undeserving. I feel like I have big shoes to fill because of all of this blessing.

God my prayer is that you would continually reveal yourself to me; continue to show me the way you would have me go. Guide me in my every step. Help me to show love to others, especially the ones who have hurt me. I thank you for your grace and love.

Amen...

-Kris-

Late nights in the dorm...

Tonight is April 31 - May 1

I realized that I am about to be a senior in college. Holy crap. I am in awe of that reality. It is a true phenomenon that I have made it to where I am. I totally and completely thank God for all the great and wonderful things he has done for me. Especially all the guidance that he has provided. After some great fellowship with some great guys I have realized a few things...

1. I am actually enjoying being single right now, for possibly the first time in my life (that's not to say I am opposed to having a girlfriend, i'm just not depressed that I don't have one).

2. I need to read more... the bible for one and then just more books in general.

3. I need to start being more efficient with my time.

4. I need to live life more purposefully, making every decision and step count.

If I make an effort to actually pursue these things I believe I can genuinely start to move in a direction that will change the world. I feel like i'm not the only one that feels this way, but it's like God has called me to greater things than what I am expecting or wanting, but I have to be patient and continue the little bits of good work he has for me now. That is the hard part, but I feel like if I start to take these steps, life will turn around or towards the perfect purpose that God actually has...

Idk I just am excited to see what God has in store, but dang it sucks to wait.

Anyways, I hope all is well with everyone, I will try to start blogging more frequently, but yea God Bless

-Kris-

Entitled to minimal amounts of garbage...

I decided to subject this blog about what I normally blog about:

My Life...

I am going to be a little frank in this blog entry. Ahead of time I would like to warn anyone reading that I am about to use some language that might be considered explicit. I forewarn anyone that is offended by language to maybe skim over or delve into why I am using the language.

With that said... I believe that all human beings are allowed to be put through a lot of shit in their lifetimes. I think some people have different degrees of shit in their lives. Some people just have a little bit, others more, some a whole massive pile of shit. I use this specific phrase because of how much we as americans hate shit. We all have bodily waste and excrement, and we all want nothing to do with it. A little bit of that smell goes a long way as we all know. I bring it up simply because I feel like lately I have had to deal with a lot of... well shit...

I can't say that i'm innocent of everything, because we all know that a lot of the things that happen to us are our own doing, but I know that some is not. I have been through a lot more than I would like to mention on the emotional spectrum of things as well as being overwhelmed with the looming school work that is going to be due in the incoming weeks. I found out two days ago that my dad has a heart that is almost fully blocked by "shit" that gathers as we eat food that is not healthy for us. I am still not entirely sure what I want to do with my life. I have been still mentally trying to sort things out that I feel were never quite solved. Regardless of what it is, there is a lot of it. I am in a storm of just overwhelming amounts of shit, or at least it feels dirty, nasty, and smelly, like our feces. So what I propose is that we just look at who's got our back...

Jesus Christ died... 2000 or some odd years ago a week ago today,

He died so that we could give him our shit... we were stained with sin and disgrace and everything imaginable, and he just said "hey dump it on me". Why? Because he was some nice guy who wanted to look good on national television? No... Christ died so that we could live a life full of freedom. He died to cleanse us from the shit of the world. It was not a pretty death, it was not graceful. It was bloody, gory, horrible and full of all the nasty the world could offer. All the suffering represented our shit. The stuff we deal with because of the unenlightened decisions we make. Yet Christ knew exactly what He was doing. He came down to earth because of His love for us. His desire for his bride to live free.

I just wanted to kind of talk some things through and remind anyone reading that...

We have all messed up, no one is perfect and never will be. Christ did die for us, after having lived a perfect life. He died so that we could be rid of all our shit, and give it to Him to sort out.

What an amazing God we have...

Lord, please just continue to guide me and all those who know you as their lord. To those who have not yet decided to follow you, bring them to that point. Thank you again God for the gift of your only son.

-Kris-