I did not make it up to church this morning :/... but I did delve into the word of God a bit. I believe that God is doing a mysterious work in me. I have fallen as many times as the next man, and yet He still welcomes me home. I know that I am not alone in these feelings. God's work is evident in two different ways: in our heart and our actions. We know and feel him work in our heart and can see it through what we find ourselves doing, just as well as others can see the outer examples of His work. The important part of the two ways is that they be in tune. If we are doing loving things on the outside but are full of garbage on the inside, who are we fooling? Ourselves? God? Of course not... we can't fool ourselves forever. We have to dig in and find the heart behind God and see what He has for us. That can be extremely difficult at times, but it is an essential part of our existence, since when we think back to the beginning, we were originally intended for fellowship with God. We would have known exactly what His heart was and what He wanted.
The work that God is doing is a different but familiar method. He has been sitting on the sidelines waiting for me to jump off the bench and do what He has called me to do. I felt that this last year at Huntington I was on the court. When I got home for the summer, I decided to take myself out of the game. Then 1/2 of the Tahbi band arrived in Cinci and things were looking up. Life happened and ended that. It was no one's fault, just the direction God was taking our lives. As soon as this was over, I went back to not wanting to play. I have arrived at a place that I am really not comfortable being in. I want to go in the game. I want to play and participate with love and passion for my Lord. It is time for me to put aside the mistakes and realize that yes that's what they were... mistakes.
From here on out I am going to do a few things everyday to make subtle but necessary changes in my heart and mindset... I also received a music application from the church I am currently attending at home, I look forward to seeing what becomes of it. I know two things...
1. God wants me to do something with Music...
2. God wants me to finish college...
besides those I have no idea in what direction he is taking me... I want to be ready and willing for anything. I love my family and friends but I want them to know that I am committed first and foremost to what God has for me. So with that said I want to leave the reader with a verse...
Ecclesiastes 8:6
Yes, there is a time and a way for everything, even as people's troubles lie heavily upon them.
God Bless
